It’s a Tuesday and for me that’s laundry day. I got a basketful to wash just now. Am not enjoying laundry day. Just hoping the weather would stay good the whole day. Even then, rain is quite rare lately so I’m not all that bothered. I sneaked out of our apartment before my homie could catch me hehehe. I’m not sure if she’s still in her room or out somewhere, but I really need the alone downtime.
I mean, ever since I came here the only thing on my mind was to do things I must do. Like, instead of staying in my room (which is my natural tendency) I will take the effort to sit in the living room watching whatever crap was on national television. Therefore I won’t appear reclusive and am open to everyone. Since I’ve been doing this for about three weeks now, it almost became a habit. I feel compelled to get out of my room when I feel I’m in there too long and announce to whoever what I have been doing and silently implying that I wasn’t avoiding them.
But that has become quite mafan :/. After downloading the right codec, (stay away from codec packs and just download divx and xvid, people) I managed to watch Meine Liebe Wieder and Gakuen Heaven yesterday. When I watch anime, I tend to enjoy watching them alone without the company of anyone. If I get people in the room while I’m watching anime, I can get annoyed and can turn nasty very easily. I’m touchy about anime, so sue me :P.
So anyway, after that, I feel like I was myself again. My old reclusive, pretty-boy-anime-obsessed old self! And it feels great! Then I started thinking I am fine with being reclusive, I’m fine with being perceived as proud or arrogant or whatever, I’m fine with doing things alone and most importantly, I’m fine with not doing the ‘right’ things anymore. I don’t want to do things I must do anymore. I just wanna start doing things that I want to do! So if other people feel left out, screw them!! I need to take time out with myself too, you know :P. Trust me, I’m a much better person this way.
So to start off doing things I want to do, I left the house without announcing. I mean come on, you don’t have to tell people where you’re going and what you’re doing all the time, right? Give me some privacy.
I’m not complaining about my homie. My homies are great. It’s just that, I’ve just been feeling that I was binded into doing the ‘right’ things for too long without me realizing it. Not that it’s bad, but if it’s not something you’re used to, it gets tiring.
Anyway, this weekend my family is coming over and I can finally get time off from that place and go to my unofficial-soon-to-be-official-second-home (USTBOSH). And besides, I could use some funds refill. Next I have to think what to eat for lunch and how to organize my notes. Oh and make someone’s card. I got my printer working last night. Haven’t got a name for it yet. Hehehe.
Ta’ra!