Integrity
Integrity is a sacred thing. It’s something like trust. Hard to obtain, easy to destroy. If someone has no integrity, I consider them as low and disdainful as a liar and a cheater. Really. For some people, keeping to their word is a chore. I’m working on improving my integrity too. Because I know how important it is. If I don’t follow up on what I say, I apologize and I’m ready to be given a lecture. Because it was entirely my fault. If you can’t keep your promise, don’t make it. But if you have no choice, give notice in advance, geez. One SMS or a phone call couldn’t be THAT hard is it?
We are not ladies-in-waiting, we hate waiting!
One more thing that just annoys me so damn much is excuses. I hate giving excuses therefore hate receiving them too. Is it my fault if people can’t keep up with your deadline? Is it your fault that they are busy? Like I fakking care! I’m busy too, do you see me complaining? Yeah I may be complaining right now, but I didn’t turn that into an excuse of not keeping up with a deadline. If you procrastinate you are just making trouble for yourself. Don’t make it into an excuse that due to your own procrastination you have to do something else that is apparently more important what what you have to do for us. I don’t fakking care. A deadline is a deadline. If other people can do it, why can’t you?
This is how things are like in the real world. They don’t care what you have going on elsewhere. This is something that was entrusted upon you and people expect you to give it your best. Not a half-hearted effort that is just ‘better than nothing’. How about other people who had given their best? That’s unfair.
Geez this is just putting one trouble on top of another. You see, ‘friends’ who bring only problems to you without offering solutions are just like a brick wall in the middle of the road. Imagine driving down the road at 100 km/h and suddenly, this wall appeared out of nowhere and you crash and burn into it. The wall won’t budge, of course. It’s there to make a statement. ‘I’m here. You can either avoid me or hit me. I don’t care’. What an annoying wall.
You see, placed strategically, this wall protects you. But in the middle of the road, it’s an obstacle. Just like friends are you companions most of the time, but every now and then you have to endure their bad sides too. Such is life.
All this assignments are obviously getting to me. But other people felt it too. If they don’t, I’ll make them feel it. It’s my fakking marks too. If only people would just come forward with their own incentives sometimes. That would make life so much easier. But things don’t work that way. You have to push them (force them even) if you want them to operate in a strict discipline.
Yes, I’m under a lot of stress right now and the situation and excuses people give me are obviously not helping. They just make things worse.
I need to defrag. Tomorrow. Who cares about tests. This is about me.
Bye.
