Yee ‘O Lost Souls

These days I watch the King Of Fighters EMC edition video on youtube.com at the rate of at least once a day. I have decided that the EMC Monkeys are going to be my idols. Some of you I have pushed into this link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c36RUFP0KoE&search=king%20of%20fighters but a lot haven’t, so here it is again! Mehehehehe! Go watch it and be awed! In regard to my addiction to the EMC monkeys I blame it to Farah Norwegian edition. Damn ye…

Oh and my plan to go attend a wedding at Yogjakarta this weekend is back on!! Yay!! I was so excited to go but then I had classes on Monday and Friday. Cummulatively I have seven classes, two of which are the same subject. I made up the letter immediately, signed it and submitted it. All done! Hehehe.

One of the classes will be the first time I will attend so I didn’t want to go because of that. But its only one class…and we’ll be shuffled into groups during that class. I will harrass someone into accepting me into their group. I mean, how hard can it be putting up a website with MS Frontpage and some HTML? I’ve done it before. Maybe I should just submit the one I have now! Hehehe.

Tomorrow is the dreadful two 4-hour blocks class. The horror O_O. I don’t want to go…please don’t make me…OK I’m lying. I want to go and I will go. Gaah. two four straight hours. I’m going to be limp by the time we’re finished. Limp. Like a dead leaf. Dead leaves are fun to step on. They make delicious crunching sounds. Mmm. Crunching sound. Yummy.

I made a very quick decision today when I said I wanted to go to Solo too. I mean, my ticket would be burned if I dont go. And I really want to go! I want to touch the Buddha in the bells and wish for Hyde!! Of course, I have to make my wish first before my dad gets to the Buddha. He’s going to wish for the Buddha to disappear! Hahaha! This idea of making a wish at the Buddha in the bell is all fun but I don’t believe in such stuff. But really, if I could wish for Hyde…oh, I so want Hyde!! At a certain point I used to think that if I could just touch Hyde or meet him or see him in person, my life would be whole D:. But of course, there are things better than Hyde. If I was presented between a contract to take over a multi-million dollar company or meet Hyde, I would choose the former. Because I like money. And someone used to say that money can make a person 90% whole. Well, with a lot of money I could literally buy Hyde! And Totchi, even the whole Dir en Grey band, the former Due’ le quartz members and all the overpriced mangas I want! And stay in Japan and visit the Nakao family for as long as I want!! Ohh what a life that would be! And imagine all the shopping trips!!

Ohh my birfday is getting nearer! I should start trading soon! Time to get my butt back into the options market! I still have to have that Langkawi holiday!

Oh yeah, I got some new Hyde porns today! Yay! When I stay in KL for one night after coming down from Solo I will go and buy the L’arc en Ciel CD at Tower Records. I hope it’s still there!! O_O

The KoF EMC edition video is finally done loading. It can take a while for it to load. I usually open one window for the video and open another to browse for other EMC videos hehehe. I will go and watch it and be awed yet again. My favorite EMC monkey is Sarith. He’s so cool…and hot. He’s the shirtless one with boxing shorts. Check out their site www.emcmonkeys.com

I’m out! Ta’ra!

Heya.

You know, I think it’s really frustrating when someone you have lost contact with for a really long time are just not that keen on you when you finally contact them. I mean, when you are really looking forward to meeting this person again because this person made an impact on your life during your childhood. And when you thought you are finally together…they end up dissapointing you. Okay so maybe you two don’t really know each other that well and after years of being apart you two have grown into two totally different individuals. That’s understandable. People change. So you approach this person slowly. Not going into "oh I have been looking for you for years!" Because this will freak out that person. No. You go slowly. It takes time to get to know this person for who they are now, not who they are years ago. And you have been totally open and be a good sport and mold the background conversation into something casual. And through time, you still havent got to meet this person yet. You are so excited to meet. You don’t instantly want to be best friends again, but you’d love it if it was the case. I mean, knowing that the person you have looked up to as a child can rely on you can be a big thing.

So getting to know this person is priority, next is to meet up in person. And then you take it from there. But just when you thought the big hurdles are over and the line is clear for a meet up…the person had to go overseas. Okay, so its going to be a while before you can reunite. So until then there’s email, right? You want this person to look at you as a special friend. Not just any random friend. You want that special little spot in their heart, no matter how small. As long as they differentiate you from their other friends. You don’t have to be too close. Just you know, special. But a good friend is okay too. It doesn’t matter if you come second, or third, or fourth before friends she’d known longer and better, just as long as this person acknowledges you, its fine. You don’t want to hog this person too much and always engaging them in endless conversation when they are online. You gave them plenty of space.

You see, communication is a two-way thing. Each person has to give 50% each. You’ve given your 50% percent or more but that person seems to give only half of that. Of course it makes you disappointed. And at a certain point, even makes you feel like a fool. Here you are, the excited idiot, only to be brushed away by your object of intent. Brushed away like your existence didn’t matter.

I’m not trying to be a whiner and just whine and whine and whine in the corner. Seriously, I’ve done my part and I just want to be treated like I matter at least for the slightest. It would help if that person showed any effort. Effort is virtue you know. I mean, how long does it take to type ‘hey its great to see you again. but I have to go now. we’ll talk later, ok?’ or maybe something similar. Its obviously better than ‘juz about to go, later ya, sorry’. and then…poof. Maybe that person never intended it to be cold. But that is the message I am getting and I am pissed.

This is not the first time I feel that I’ve been neglected by the same person. Perhaps due to our short amount of time talking online together, and the extremely long years of being apart, that person regards me as a stranger. I can’t blame that person. It’s just that…it just makes you frustrated and all that. And makes you wonder if that person is really worth all that effort?

I am just annoyed. Leave me alone to my sorrow.

Its the start of the real hectic week. Yesterday I spent the day cleaning my drawers. And while I did that I even managed to count my money in my little tabung and sewed on a button to a flower pin I used to have! Talk about procrastination!

My essay for that blog thing is going on steadily. Really want to give my best here. I wnated to post a pic of my messy desk and the pin and my marathon certificate. Hilarity.

But Im short of time. So next time then! So, ta’ra!

p/s Yue En Fen is my idol. hehehehe

Today is April fool. I heard there’s a fun fair going on in St. Mary’s today. With coupons and such. Creativity hehehe.

I am currently cleaning up my first and second desk drawers. After the end of last sem, I threw out the books I don’t use anymore and they used to fill up the first drawer. After that the drawer is filled with my play books. Stories, comics, doodles, those kind. Now the books have accumulated and it’s my job to clean them up again. I hate dust.

But I found my old notebook that used to house (house?) all my high school drama information. I found out something about the villain that will strenghten the story. I sorely forgot about it until just now. I guess I should have kept at least one copy of the old drama script hehehe. I shall add that bit of info into the remake soon. Oh, did I mention I just completed a remake of that drama? For now its titled ‘Looking for Mr. Andrew: Remake’. But with new cast and audiences it will be released under a different title. Just hoping I could stage this play…somehow. It’s about 30 minutes long but depending on the condition given, I could alter it easily since the base is already there heh.

To the previous cast and crews of the original Looking for Mr. Andrew, some of you guys are going to be disappointed heh. I slashed out a lot of characters. Mine included. So no more Chloe, Carrie, the bartender, serenader, extras in the bar, the two henchmen (or woman. since both the actors were…female) and Mr. Andrew himself. And no more police and inspector too. Last time there were so many characters the story just sorta…jumbled up in the end. That was a serious flaw. In this remake I took the few important characters and magnified them. Victor gets to show his more sloppy side and talked a bit about his past, while Lucifer…well, Luci is Luci. He got more exposure. In the end, the audience are going to love him. Kinda reminds me of Kuja hehe. And Mrs. Andrew, of course. She got a more prominent role and Dave, Victor’s assitant, is renamed Gilbert. I don’t know why. It sounds more…detective-ish. Oh and the secretary. There’s still the secretary in the story, but unlike the original seductive secretary, this one is a more grumpy, ‘madame’ kind of character. There’s still a need for an extra though. Just one, with like, two lines? It’s a soldier from Luci’s flashback.

The main problem when it comes to choosing the cast would be to choose Lucifer. Glad to say the previous Lucifer was excellent. If the script had been better and he got more exposure, that Lucifer could easily outshine Victor! Well done heh. You know who you are. And also, the person who played Lucifer even provided me with some background that could be useful for Lucifer. I created Lucifer with most of the given information.

One important thing about the original drama was that, it was done narratively, with an author typing away at the side of the stage. So the whole play is actually a story written by that author who’s named Nate. No more Nate. That was confusing. I’m going to remember when writing a script, they don’t always transpire as you would want them in real life. Simplicity is virtue. I’ve been wanting to write a script about something more…practical. Like, the national celebration or something. I’ve been asked to do that once and I just went blank. If I could do something that’s related to things people celebrate that’d be great. Then we could stage it during such celebration. *sighs* I wish I could do that one day. I’d be so proud…

And oh yeah, despite having his name in the title, Mr. Andrew himself is no longer present in the remake hehehe. Right now I’m going through approximate 400+ of game songs to find suitable background music for each scene. But I stopped some time ago hehehe.

No I have a drawer to get back to. Ta’ra!