Yee ‘O Lost Souls

  Finally~ a dream come true! Our first album of the group Beta-Endorphin with the album name Leaf That(?). Hahaha! I wish! This is one of those picture’s Kak Eim’s senior took of us. You know, the one I mentioned before who likes taking pics. But he just took the pic and sent them to us. My friend Mr. Leaf did the cover album thing. Cool huh? ^_~. Thank you lots Mr. Leaf. Hehehe. By the way, Beta-endorphin is your brain’s original "feel good" drugs. Its produced when you exercise. Thats why you can get high and addicted to the endorphin rush to the brain when exercising. Its a good thing though. It makes you feel positive. So everyone, exercise!

Oh man, time to start on my ramble eh. Well we had rearrangement going on with our timetable this week. And this new timetable well…doesnt quite agree with me. Well, either way I have to settle it. I also had my mandarin replacement class tonight. I was soooo tired that I even fell asleep in class! O_O I should have taken a nap first. Anyway, I dont have any urgent homework for tomorrow so I can sleep early. In a moment I hope. My eyeballs are screwing out of my sockets. +_+

Mehh I just captured a mozzie but it just flew out from between my palms! How frustrating!

Anyway, we all have our own biases and egos. The same applies to myself although I wont deny that I am a bit of a stereotype sometimes. I generally can’t stand people who are ‘clingy’. As in, when you say hi to them in the morning, they end up etching themselves onto you, following you everywhere and makes it a point that you two stay together the whole day, go to classes together, sit next to each other and basically does everything together and they end up annoying you. I hate that. Especially when you two just met and you know this person is not the type you could go along very well with without hurting the other. I am like that. I have a habit of neglecting people who I deem cannot contribute anything to me.

What I mean contribute is, like help me in studies, gain new friends for or with me, help motivate me or just have fun with me without excluding everyone else. A person doesnt need to fill in all the above criteria, but as long as he or she is cool and is very open minded and well, cool(very general on this one), I dont mind. But I don’t like clingy people who lets me decide everything and follows everything I do up to the point that I cant freely chat up new people without looking like Im ignoring him or her.

I am easily annoyed by this. :/ But sometimes I know a person is very nice and doesn’t do anything bad to me (like talking behind my back) but I still feel a certain "turn-offness" when I see them or around them. Like, they are a real turn off to be with you know. I’m still figuring out why I feel this way. But each time I convey my uneasiness to someone, that someone understand it and also felt a bit like I do. Maybe because I am more obvious in my conduct. There are very few "someone" like that for me. One of them was rambling about basketball hoops in his blog hehehe.

BuT HMMM I dont know!!! I’m very confused. I’m trying my best to get rid of my vices I inherited from my old school. I dont want to say bad things about anybody or hate somebody and end up in "groups" because well, we know what happens to those. Tomorrow I shall confront it once more and maybe try to convey it someone else. This is totally making me look bad. And I dont like it. Because, you all know how evil I am and how evil I can be. Literally. I can do things people say as "cruel" without feeling sorry for it. I don’t want to have to do that. I forced myself not to feel sorry to my "victims" although I know its bad. But I keep telling myself its neccessary. Well, some of them work and I never regret those things. I gained tremendously from those experiences and I don’t want to repeat those horrors O_O. No, God, NO!

But for certain, one type of person I cant stand is :people who demotivate me continuously, keeps giving off negative vibes and devaluing my abilities. Because I for sure won’t (or trying not to) do all those things I said. Respect all. Everyone has unlimited possibilities and abailities to reach their peak performance. Those who do all those things I said will only limit themselves and the people around them; The main reason I stay away from them.

A parting thought, the last paragraph of a very good poem (by who? I dont really know):

"Life’s battles don’t always go,

To the strongest or fastest man,

But soon or late, the man who wins,

Is the one WHO THINKS HE CAN."

Ta’ra!

Woah NO! Not me! My cousin! See there? That’s not the dais by the way, they are seeing the guests off after the ceremony. But the tepung tawar is not yet though. Nice huh? He’s one cousin I can’t believe would eventually got married (not in the next five years at least). But oh well, now he’s all grown up *sob sob*. It was fun when the whole family went down to Miri over the weekend just to attend his wedding. Jep, he’s pretty popular among our family, but not in a negative sense, or a celebrity sense, just that, he’s around enough for people to remember and hang out with and stuff. But none of those anymore hehehe he’s married now and has a wifey to take care of. And no more surprise visits from him too! ^_^. He can be annoying grrr. ( And what happened to my editing job!?)

I’ll lay off it for now. The wife is a mix caucasian. She was raised in Miri and lives in KL but she speaks Sarawakian well. Now this is the second time I met a Caucasian who speaks Sarawakian fluently. I’m starting to see a trend here…hmm. The first was obviously Farah and family. Well, her daddyo was my daddyo’s childhood friend and was raised here too. And went back to Norway only after high school. Since his wife is also a local, its understandable that their kids speak the langguage too.

…Look, Im just surprised, okay?

I think Farah should surely study here hehehehe. Then we can have double-trouble with our…activities ;). Then we can establish our own group, invite a few people along and then…TAKE OVER THE WORLD!!!!

Well, maybe only on the drawing and anime stuff. But personally I am serious on that note.*cheeky grin* We sure had fun in Miri. My cousin, Kak Eim (Prefix kak meaning ’sis’) called up her chatting buddies and they were very nice and took us around to satisfy our whims hahahaha. We took a lot of pics in a variety of poses too hehehehe. And I mean, a LOT. Last night, Kak Eim’s senior entertained us to some photo shooting spree at the ‘Old Lady’ the first oil mine in Miri where they have monuments and stuff. Nice place to get pics. Look at it this way; We like to get our photos taken and HE likes to take photos! See the combination!? ^_^ He CAN take photos Im telling you. All the photos he took were marvellous and we used up around 58 shots in his digicam lol. He has a thing for taking pics. The pics he took look like they were from some magazine! LOL! And Im not kidding! I’ll upload some onto friendster when I received them! Yey!

Overall it was a fun trip. We went to the beach and stuff and visited Curtin Uni the yesterday. Thank you all to our lovely hosts in Miri. It has been a great trip thanks to you guys. Hehehehe. (do not question my snickering hehehehe)

So tomorrow is class! I wanna go get ready! (I dont know why Im so excited at the prospect of class except IT because IT is boring)

Ta’ra! Wan an da jia!

p/s I just wanted t show off my TV.:D

I just found out something today. I can actually take screeny with winamp! But there’s still some bugs to it. So far I can share with you these. Go go!! Dancing cops from Koda Kumi’s video clip, Chase. Miss Kumi is pretty, yes, Im willing to bet she’s prettier than Ayumi but she’s a bit low on the morale department. She’s too sexy. Most of her vids aren’t good, so dressed skimpily to make up for it. *sighs* She’s skimpy too in this one, showed a lot of legs, but this is her best vids yet. Well, its the only one I watched hehehe and my friend said her other songs arent as good. Ah well.

I need to go back to that homework today. And guess what? I have only ONE hour of class tomorrow afternoon 4:30-5:30! I doubt the class will go on to 5:30 when the aircond is turned off at 5 pm. I’m leaving for Miri tomorrow for my cousin’s wedding over the weekend. My flight is slightly later than my family’s. Mine is at …*checks* 7:25 pm while everyone else’s is 4 pm? Hmm yeah around that time. So I go back home after class, pray, grab some food and leave for my flight. I surely hope someone’s there at the Miri airport to pick me up :P. I dont want to have to take a taxi. No, God, No! O_O.

That song from Counting Crows, Accidentally In Love is funkay! Its so upbeat. You guys should surely check it out! Its the OST for Shrek 2 by the way. Yeah, that song! Go and grab it! Lol.

So today is the last day Mr. Jong will be teaching our class. Hmm for some reason the class really likes him eh. Yeah he’s nice, that’s because like us, he is also still a student. A Masters student studying engineering currently on sabbatical, but still a student. He’s cool though. Personally, I do see the importance of an engineer, but I still see no sense in studying so long and hard only to land a job in the blue-collar category. *shrugs* thats just kerazy. Blue-collars end up working for the white-collar who studies either less, or dont even posses a degree at all! Heck - look at Bill Gates! He’s a Harvard drop out but the world’s most brilliant people all work below him! Tis a cruel fate, but alas, someone has to endure it, eh?

Its also funny how one of the girls in engineering class doesnt know what blue-collar is. Should I or should I not explain to her what it means? I have a feeling she’s taking up engineering for the glamor of it. When I asked her why though, she said "because too many people take business" hmm when I think about it, our situation is totally different! I mean, back in school, half or almost half of my class all want to become an engineer and nearly all of the those above are currently taking engineering so I CAN say "I’m taking business because too many people take engineering" LOL.

But naaah, I’m not taking business because of that reason ;). I’m taking business because that is what I want to do, right Mr. Eloquent Intellect? I found it hard to name people here. I try not to name people and use nicknames instead but some people deserve name mentioning. But I prefer nicknames when people feel those names are very much related to them like how I feel for ’smap’. Mr. Leaf is so used to calling me that :P. Or ’snap’, typo for smap. But…but…you still..!

*steam out of nose effect here, again*

Nice to know there’s also other people out there, people I know, may I add, who also LOVE Suikoden. ^_^. Right, Farah? *big toothy grin* Although you have a bit of a RO fetish going on hehehe.

I will be back here late Sunday afternoon. And when I start class on Monday, my sis will be starting class too. But her first class is in the afternoon. And yes, she will be driving…I cant drive fast enough in the afternoon due to traffic…-_-. Friendster said I can upload 50 pics in a month…so here goes! Miss Kumi in a maid unifrom ^_^.

Well that’s all for my rambles. I need to go freshen up and do my homework. Ta’ra!

Kogepan!!! Isn’t he just cute!? That black scratch thingy on his head is permanent though lol. Here’s another one hehehe. He’s a burnt bread. I wanted one of him reading a comic but couldnt find it. And I cant make screeny with winamp. 

One of my friends from the engineering class borrowed my Harry Potter book today. I made it clear that I would kill him should anything happen to my book though hehehe. That book ain’t cheap!

Waaah I met Farah online today, my Norwegian counterpart that is. I was watching Final Approach when she came around. Final Approach was a short and cute anime. I didnt realized, until I finished watching them all that each of the 13 eps are only 12 mins long lol!I wanted to workout too today but *someone* was hogging the TV room. Grrr. I’ll just workout tomorrow. I could use the energy boost for my math tute that afternoon. The lecturer is not back yet…hmmm I wonder if Mr. Jong (no relation whatsoever to Jong’s Crocodile Farm)will be teaching us again this time. Well he’s not bad. Not boring, just that…he’s new. Madam Lee Lin obviously have more experience in teaching. And I’m more comfortable with her.

But for the sake of my HD!!*steam out of nose effect here*

I should surely convey this message to my friend who is enjoying himself in form six hehehe. Also nice move on the blog there hehehe. I can see you’re starting to ramble on your first post there hehe.

And Ejoule is starting to write in his blog too hehehehe. …it sounds like Im encouraging people to blog or something hehe.

I just witnessed outright PLAGIARISM today!!! Some stupid exercise leader was totally stealing Denise Austin’s move during a morning exercise session in Padang Seri Menanti wherever that is. I thought I heard a familiar line on TV, but was said in BM. I was getting ready for class that time, so I ran downstairs and turn on the TV. and there she was!!! How dare she uses Denise Austin’s lines and moves! She was leading a group of people (a large group of people) in a morning exercise. And I was standing there staring open-mouthed at the screen, my heart twisting in agony as she trasnlated Denise’s perky lines word by word into Malay. Those lines that had encouraged me to exercise and became one of Denise’s msot appealing characteristics! No one else can use those lines except Denise damn you! Get your own line! AAAAAAAAAARGH!!!! No fair! I mean, its good that she’s leading everyone to exercise, and exercise is always good. But not when she’s stealing Denise’s move and claim them as her own!!! This is an outward insult to Denise Austin! And I am enraged! Grrr grr..

…I’m so avoiding doing my homework. That’s all for today’s ramblings. Ba bai.

I watched this anime I just uploaded from my friend. Its so funny. A short ten eps of 4 mins anime. Its Kogepan, a story of a burnt bread who wants to be put on display and bought by customers. Whenever he moves, he makes this crispy sound lol.

Anyway I had a nice time bossing around in IRC hehehe. But only for a short while. Some lamers got on my nerve.

Today we had our first oral assesment. Me and my partner’s went well so whew to that. We were lucky number one too in the order of presenting. Our audience said we were great so well, hopefully our marks turn out great too. I have homework now that I have to finish so this will be a short post. Its not really a homework, but I need to brush up on this exercise heh. So, Ta’ra!

I miss Suikoden. I’ve been planning to re-play Suikoden 3 with the data from Suikoden 2 load on it. But well, been procrastinating. Have some ill feeling when playing that game. I feel like betraying Suikoden you know. It has a lot of annoying extra features I dont quite like. Came as huge disappointment after Suikoden 2’s excellent performance. It is arguable which game is better between Suiko 1 and 2. But since I started out with Suiko 2, I’m more attached to it. But I still enjoy playing Suiko 1 even though the graphics are bad.the characters’ pic in the dialogue box are well, not very pretty. Good thing Suikoden 4 came. It wasn’t nearly as good as Suiko 2, but its a great relief from the disappointment of Suiko 3. I just checked the SuikoSource website and there’s no update on Rhapsodia yet. The upcoming Suiko tactics game.

Oh!!!! Speaking of tactics, I just finished FFT last week! And right before I go watch Puteri Hang Li Po’s play too! I was in a bit of a rush playing it when I think about it.But all is good. I finished the deep dungeon and got all the extra characters except babylos. The Apanda in the final stage of deep dungeon. He died while fighting Elidibs, the final boss of the dungeon hehehe. I dont bother revive him because I dont have enough space in my party for him and he does an insane amount of damage to Elidibs! I dont want him to die before I got all his treasures! By the time I reach Elidibs, two of my fighters were frogged, two dead and only Ramza remained, though poisoned severely. Was I glad when Elidibs died! WHEW!

I got another homework today. Not that much really. And I still have to catch up on my IT. I already learned all this in high school, but I dont want to take things for granted. I’m gonna have to read up on the notes soon. Feh. Not fun. Tomorrow is our first oral assessment. I don’t wanna screw up but I don’t want to be over confident too. We’re going to practice first before class tomorrow. I’m not feeling nervous or anything. But the fact is that this thing is marked and I’m on a script. For the sake of my partner I have to be careful. Don’t want to run on the mouth hehehe. This is 15% of our overall marks this is. Such a nice topic too. Well I’m going back to my homework which I intentionally dragged. I wonder how long will I be grinning at the prospect of a homework?

OH~! Math lecture is canceled tomorrow so I have free time till noon!^_^. So means I can sleep in. I just go to IT tute and then oral~! So now I have to finish up on my homework and well, practice for oral. So see you!

Ta’ra!