Yee ‘O Lost Souls

Hmmm. All those blog updates announcements must be quite annoying eh? But! Since you’re here, you must at least be rewarded! By what, you say? Well, by my random insanities, of course!*grins* (What’d you expect???) This is one hectic day. From 11-3 today I went out with Elain and some to celebrate my friend’s birfday. Then at 5 there’s this going away party/gethering (couldnt call it a party really) at my friend’s. There was a lot of those invitations for the past week. I’m really sorry to those I had to decline. Its mainly because I’m not used to driving at night and there’s no one to drive me. And also because I dont know where you guys live too. It’d be a problem directing someone to somewhere I havent been before. So, many apologies to all of you! *bows*

So today at my friend’s, the banana there was big. Yes, big. No, not the one you fry heh. The one you eat. Took me a while to finish it. (I just HAD to write that one). So tonight no IRCing or LFSing or trading. I also canceled my mandarin class tonight. Too much stuff going on. I’m stuffed. Yes, I used your line, Mr. Leaf. (You can have it back when I’m done though) Afterwards Im sleeping over at my friend’s so Im blogging early. Why? Because I CAN! Mwahahaha. I should like, make a namelist and write where they are going next to their names. Im so lost with this ‘whos going where, studying what’ thing. :/

Well, have to get ready. Ta’ra!

Yes, I finally have a new mouse! Optical too! wheeeee. Yay for me. Actually, I have had it for over a year now, but never used it. Its great! My old one gave you this feeling like a suspension bridge. Makes you really nervous and suspense. It takes a lot of effort to make the cursor move that extra  inch. What a bother. And my stupid mousepad is gone too. Wheeee! So now Im going mousepadless. Fun fun.

Today I went to a double movie marathon. Pontianak menjerit and Batman Begins. Didnt plan to watch that Malay movie because stupid cinema put up Mr. and Mrs. Smith on the website BUT played a different movie! Pisses me off! But Batman was AWESOME!! But my friend fell asleep watching it :P. I totally enjoyed it. (I want to marry Batman >.>) If you’re a fan of stuff like that, like myself, you’d enjoy it. This guy is the best Batman ever!

I have finally sharpen my skills at LFS. VASTLY at that. Of course, I learn from the Pro *grins*. Now if only I have a VISA. Life would be soooo much easier. Unless I start a company theres no way I could own a credit card. I think I found a solution to that. Daddyo. We could work something up here hehe. I havent been doing much trading lately too. Need to get into that before the course on the 9th July. Tomorrow my friend and I are going out with Elain to celebrate my friend’s birfday. She’ll already be away by the time of her birfday so we’re seeing her off soon. Tired as I am, I’m hungry too. :/

Well, there’s not much random wisdom for you all tonight, just ramblings hehehe. Aaaanyway, peace out!

More blogging goodness before bed ^_~! Bonjela wasn’t very happy to see me. I wasnt very happy to see it too. It stings. Literally. And made my mouth feel all funny. :/. And my throat is well. Yay! Or yey…as the Asian version goes. I met this guy who has a friend who’s completely obsessed with himself. You’d think so too if you read his blog. WTF with calling himself a visionary and seeing ‘the true picture’ while all he does is sit at home and play Halo 2 all day. He calls other people’s blogs of their everyday life as crap and perceived them as losers of the ‘real world’. He sits in a corner and criticizes other and told them to change without chaging himself! Well I’ll say this!

People are different. You would never meet two people who are exact copy of each other. Sure, some are insanely stupid, while others are just insane and there are quite a number who are cool. You don’t just let them off as being stupid and ignorant. Thats how they are. People are different. That’s what makes them interesting. When people do things differently from yours, dont just straightforwardly say they are wrong. Sure, they may be wrong and failed. But we don’t go and call them stupid. DOnt you know that making mistakes is the easiest way to success? Look at Edison. He patented over a 1000 products and people claim more than half of them are useless. Does that make him any less great? No! He didnt go pass 3rd grade and his teachers label him as dumb and he went off to found the biggest company in human history! When we say we have failed, we don’t fail. as Edison said "I didn’t fail, I just found the wrong way to do things." Hear it from the man himself! No man is an island. If everyone were smart and beautiful, there would be no differentiation between good and evil, black and white, pretty and ugly. I mean, if we’re all beautiful, we wouldn’t know it, right? Because there’s no ugly one to compare us with. And it would be a dull world. We need variation and diversity in our lives.

Especially since, living in Malaysia, a multi-racial country, I detest racism. Thats why I dont like how my school preach about ‘our’ race. I am a Malay, yes, but I am also a Malaysian. And furthermore, I am a world citizen first. I feel its important for people to realize that if you can’t change yourself, you can’t change the world. Lead by example, and others will follow.

Thats all for my rants. Peace out!

Here’s an ‘insightful story’ for you people tonight. Its a log off IRC from my friend whos named will be disclosed below hehe. He attracts a lot of weirdos. God knows why. Enjoy.

<Guest63057> when the sun is sleep
<Guest63057> i were burried in its sleep
<Guest63057> but not my body
<Guest63057> which dancing on its blind spot
<Guest63057> does the wind capture my step
<Guest63057> or just the storm flew mw away
<Guest63057> down with the stream of a scream
<Guest63057> and pains kill my sorrow
<Guest63057> sometimes the time left me
<Guest63057> behind its big step
<Guest63057> i can only wacth its track
<Guest63057> triugh the center of my dream
<Guest63057> but the past stabing my hope
<Guest63057> for the reasons i hold
<Guest63057> as the angel of death awaits me
<Guest63057> i’m hiding under my fear
<Guest63057> and try to seak out my louzy wings
<Guest63057> just to get a step on
<Guest63057> suddenly lonelyness awakes me
<Guest63057> from my travel of nothing
<Guest63057> in the forest of anger
<Guest63057> without something to hold on
<Guest63057> many nights and day with sufferring
<Guest63057> but the stars always hide behind the moon
<Guest63057> and forever left my nights

"the forest of anger tHE FOREST OF ANGER!!!!111ELEVEN" - Sean, 2005

Now what was my last post? Oh, bonjela? Yeah havent found those yet. Have ulcer(s) in my mouth :/. Yeah, not fun. And bonjela is not fun either. But its a way to get better. And nobody said that too was going to be fun (or pleasant). Does taking your meds ever pleasant? Yes? You’re nuts then. Having done away by those meds. tsk tsk.

I’ve been too lazy to trade lately. Too lazy to read the charts. I usually predict (which turns out correct most of the time >.>) but I wouldnt risk it with real money. Glad Im only doing virtual trading. I finally got my Cd-rs! Wheee! At Saberkas they go for RM38 for 50. And they can go up to 52x! Thats even better than the cdrs I bought before! Some Japanese made. You’d really need to be choosy when buying cdrs. You dotn want to end up with a lot of the cheapo bad ones. RM38 for 50? Good enough for me. And this one comes with the spindle. I definitely wouldnt buy them for more than RM0.80 each. After all, these are just for archiving all those animes I downloaded.

I asked around in IRC for the sore throat remedies and they gave me some weird suggestions. Of course, from trusted resources heh. Just that…I’M NOT ABOUT TO POUR SCALDING HOT WATER DOWN MY THROAT!

I need to go to bed now. Ta’ra!

For now Dequadine and Bonjela are my new best friends! …after I found out where Bonjela is.

So it isn’t such a bad day after all. My friend came and we went to the market (Yes, the wet ones with all the nitty gritty) to look for this humongo textile shop. I did some browsing there and bookmarked the ones I need to buy later hehe. I finalize one of my clothes designs and browsed for the right materials. I found one and some hehehe. The shop isn’t the one I frequent but its okay. The stuff there are cheap and you cant usually find the high quality imported stuff that goes for RM35+ per meter. But I wouldnt want to buy all my textiles there. I dont want to end up wearing the same thing everyone else does. I might be making a return trip there sometime before August *nods nods*. I also found something interesting at the Guardian Pharmacy. Some chocolate flavored drink that can reduce the fat mass in your body. Hmmmmmm. That one needs thorough thinking. What? You think I wanna buy it? Mmmrrrrfff guhggh *muffled sounds*. Well, maybe >.>

So between IRCing, trading, LFSing and Animeing, When do I find time for myself? Those mentioned above are all time for myself! Hehehehe. Although once in a while I like going out. Specially after my funds are replenished. Hehehehe. Well, LFS calls! I didn’t see Mr. Leaf today. He must be busy with that alpha version of LFS. I’ll kick his arse yet! Hehehe.

Peace out!

Right now I feel tired, hungry, a bit depressed and burnt out (from what? I don’t know :/) Right now I just want to go to bed, but I don’t think I’ll be able to sleep (my hair is wet too) so I might as well update my blog and do some trading to cheer myself up. My mom fussed around for the fabric and stuff for hari raya’s clothes (also known as Eid) to send to the tailor. I came up with a few designs for pants for my clothes just now. I prefer pants over the sarung really. Easier to move since I like taking big steps heh. Im still experimenting with the designs, have to buy the right fabric for them though. And hopefully not too expensive to make >.> dont wanna burn out someone else too in the process.

I had to turn down a friend’s invitation today ebcause of unavoidable reasons. If I go, I sincerely go for the sake of him (since its his dinner gathering) and not for the sake of everyone else. I’d like it if people would appreciate it more. I don’t care what company you have there as long as my presence is acknowledge and appreciated and not just another ‘add on’. I would be so glad once everyone goes to uni. Well, my friend came over today and we watched a movie and talked and stuff. So that was good :]. And after declining that invitation I talked to my good friend and it made me feel a bit better since only he understands that situation I’m in. He’s apparently in the same ‘class’. Good to know Im not alone. Also I havent had a decent workout in days now since the TV is gone. Even then, I’ve worn out all my workout vcd and Im growing bored of them. Im even thinking of going to the gym! O_O *squeals* I’m weighing my option. I dont like working out outside the home and my dad said the gym fee of RM10 a month plus my junior membership fee of another RM20 is a good deal since the gym is properly equipped (from my quick glance) and people are few (the most I counted was two or three) And my dad is a long time member of the club. The gym is at the golf club by the way. Gaaah I hate this. I might as well drag my sis along. >.> Any suggestions, anyone?

Hello! Here I am today for another update. First off, as usual, I woke up in uh, the afternoon. Nothing new hehehe. When I went to the TV room for my daily exercise routine, I found the TV was gone! O_O! But well that TV had issues so it went off for repair. So I’m gonna have to workout in my room for a while >.> Each time I make a move I’m sure going to hit something! Since my friend is coming over tomorrow, Im gonna have to either exercise early or not exercise at all. Hmmmm. I also need to go buy that popcorn. OR I can just take some of Sarah’s stash hehehehe. I can buy some later and ‘pay’ her back you know. ho hum. Also, I was pried away from my mandarin class tonight! *cries!* My dad told me to cancel it coz of his khatam ‘graduation’ tonight. Well its not that I dont want to be there for his big moment, but I really like my Mandarin class and I dont want to miss and have a replacement class. And we’re also starting our second month tnight! ;.;. And he had also missed a lot of MY big moments and his reasons were unacceptable. Grrrr. Especially when it involved…’them’. …

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Anyway! I checked out some of the LFS teams websites (LFS stand for Life For Speed by the way), an online racing game. None of those MMORPG crap :P. After looking at those I suddenly feel like racing again. But my stupid mouse pad grrrr is worse than my old one! At least its plastic, but being 3D, it has those lines. Thats very annoying :/. My mouse either gets static or wont move that extra inch. I should substitute the mouse too. About time I get those laser ones. Interval training coming my way tomorrow! And some crunches before bed tonight! Must do the crunch! Tata~

So hum, what shall I blog today? First off, I finally got my errands done! Yay! Now Ms Tan can bank in the money and fax the stuff for me hehehe. Any of you people out there ever play FFT on PS2? Does it have bugs? Mine did. I wonder if its the disc or the game just isnt that compatible to PS2. :/ So much for the promise that ps2 can play ALL of ps1’s games! Now there’s something we should all be reminded of when buying ps3 huh?

Today is…OMG! Something horrible is coming today!!! *screams*